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 finally, exams are soooo over. I'M HAPPYYYYY! i'm gonna shop till i drop, do soooo manyyyy thingy luh! HAHAH! anyway, ytd was kayakking and it was so #&$%^&*&)^(%^*$! starting was swimming from one point then back. next, starting bringing our boat out. at first i was stuck. kept turning ard and ard. luckily the instructor helped me! SAVED! and later on i was much better. but serious dizzyness! and bestie said that there was some kinda pills that could actually prevent us from seasick. i was AMAZED! HAHAHAH-.- morning met charlene to cheer her up and met baby together! and there was bad news! shall not say. LOL. then i had dinner at kfc with friends,classmates and babyyyy! and he sent me home! how sweet! HAHAHH! and today is shopping day with baby! OMG.i am gonna spend all my $$$$$$! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! and tues is results day. i shall pray hard hoping that i will get into double science, if not my dad will kill me instead of kissing me! LOL and i wont get that amount of cash! AHHHHH! shall end here. will post up pics soon kkayz? do tag too!

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today's art paper was alright,except for my fcuking background which i'm disappointed luh. i got cookies from girl guides after awaiting for so long and then baby waited for me at gate and went to have lunch. i suddenly thought of the past with you girls. back then was really happy, but now, i'm left alone,kinda. i did regret somethings. friendships have been neglected, i'm sorry. i didnt want it this way. this will be a longggg post. its up to you to read it kayys! thanks to art that made me so emotional now.-.- to this wonderful gf of mine, we're apart, real far. i want it all back to normal. i'm sorry. girls, what if one day, i lose him and i'm all left alone to stay strong, i was thinking if you guys would be there for me. what if not? what will i do? i really need you guys, you're then the pillar of my life. i'm trying to stengthen ties with you.i'll try. i hope i will be as close with you like before. and tmr we will be going out. i'm still wondering if i shld go, or maybe i shld stay at home. i have the feeling that someone doesnt want me there. like i'm extra. idk. perhaps and maybe i'm just thinking too much. i really really do wanna turn back time, but for now, i only can wish for a better tmr. i never show my true self to all of you, cause i know that i've to be happy always.there are many prob yet to be solved and i'm tired,stressed over everything thats happening. i keep everything to myself,hoping that i'll have a chance to pour out everything and i might feel better. i just want a little more communication, a little more laughter,a little more of everything. and i just wish we'll be forever. i'm glad to have such wonderful girlfriends cause my past ones are bitches. they 're backstabbers. babeh knows it well. yeap. and to have such good bonding, it takes time. and i'm really grateful and thankful to wtv god to have blessed me to have you guys. i always tell myself not to ask for more, but for this once, i've to. cause i'm losing you guys. let me once again, be like we used to be before. i regretted so many things and i hope there's still that chance.